“My auntie died of cancer, she was never married, and she was only focused on her career. When she was diagnosed with cancer, she had a spiritual experience towards the last moments of her death. She started to have hallucinations and having vivid conversations with someone that we can’t see. She would talk to us about how she was talking to this person, and how he had brought chicken rice for us to eat, and that his name was Ah Meng. I was shocked, and asked her ‘What? I brought food for you auntie’. She responded, saying Ah Meng had given the food already.
My auntie said that they always had deep conversations, and how he bought a lottery ticket and how he had won the jackpot and how he wanted to distribute the winnings.
Ah Meng would also mention my other aunties’ names, and whom not to give his winnings to.
And most of all, I really cannot forget about the time she looked into my eyes, and said that they both have a son together.
It sounds really crazy, but its real, and I swear, I had goosebumps. We called a psychiatrist, and the doctor said it could be her medicine (she was on steroids), or because of her staying in a hospital for long periods of time.
It gave me goose bumps, and I thought maybe he was a grim reaper. Maybe she was high on steroids, but whenever she talks about Ah Meng, she’s the happiest and liveliest I’ve seen of her.
When she snaps out of it, she’s super quiet and just keeps to herself.
So one day I want to do a film on her, and Ah Meng. I want to make this film as homage to her memory.”
Photostory by Mushamir Mustafa
